i miss my buddy. =]

haaayyyzz…

i miss you best. i just hope you’re here beside me.

you make me happy.

you gave me a hug that no one could ever replace.

a hug that truly feels that you care for me so much.

i appreciate the effort you do just to keep in touch with me.

i happen to miss those efforts you did. if i just had seen them before, i would have lived a happy life communicating with you.

though there’s no commitment between us, you make it as if it’s a commitment to keep in touch with me.

thanks best. =]

i’m glad i met you

you’re the BEST bestfriend!!!!

what should i do with mahhh life? heheh e

wala lang.. i’m sooOO lazy.. not goOOdddd.. tsk tsk.. hahayz..

i feel like i’m ready…

… to depart from this world. i don’t know why. for some reason, i just like i’ve tried everything. meeaaannnssss:

i have tried to be the pain in the ass.. hehe

i have tried to be kind.

i have tried to be honest.

i have tried to be dishonest.

i have tried helping other people. =]

i have tried being a meanie to other people as well.

i have been so stupid.

i have tried to be smart (to the extent that i think i am smart. hehe)

i have tried to be obedient.

i have tried to be disobedient.

i have been feeling the love of my friends, family, co-workers and of course the person i LOVED the most.

i also have felt the dislike/hate of my enemies, so-called family, so-called co-workers, and the person i LOVED. =[ (sad but true lol. hehe i grew from them though. they were the people whom, i think, is important to me. they made me who i am today.)

I feel like i also found the my significant other. even though we’re miles apart, i really feel his love for me. i love him as well. ^_^ somewhat it made my soul complete.

i also feel like i’ve given my mother the best care and concern i can show her. i know it’s not enough but as for my situation, i’m sure i have helped my sister alot on taking good care of my mom.

i just feel really complete. that’s all. ^_______^

i llllloooovvvveeeeeeeeee how i was able to cope with my WORST condition in life, having an incurable illness. it sucks but it was because of my carelessness.. hehehe i really have tried everything. i have tried suicide as well, i ran away, hated myself, depressed, etc. but coped with everything. grew from it. learned from it.

i was able to develop myself into a better Christina. i just hope i’ll continue improving and improving.

gggggggggggggrrrrrrrrr…….. watashiwa

gggrrrr i hate myself……

beleted happy anniversary bhe. . hehehe!!!!!!

hai bhe, hehehe dir lng nko butang bhe ha ky wla mn ko nka padala ug sulat hehehe!!thank sa tanan bhe ha, nga hangtod krun love jpun kau ko nmuh . .hehehe thank sa gift nmuh bhe ha!!!maskin unsa pana imung gift ok rna sako basta gikan sa imuh bhe!!hehehe thank sa tanan2 bhe ha? thank pud ko kang lord bhe nga,maskin cge nata ug away,ma ok ra jpun tah pg kahuman i love u bhe happy2 anniversary bhe,hope bhe malampasan pa nato tanan trials love u bhe thank a lot!!!bisaya ra kau ko bhe!!!!hehehe sory mi-nus kau english!!!hehehe

we’re ok now.

hehehehehehe.. dramatista man guro jud ko bah?? hahaha.. mag katawa ko sakong self jud.. as in.. hahaha insecure lang guro jud ko.. kei d baya ko gwapa.. kiatan man jud ako uyab oi.. tsk tsk.. oh well. come what may.. kung lalaki xa.. tanan nya sulti nako iya tumanon.. kung dili gani.. hahayz.. la ko ma do!! kundi LET-GO… 

but anywho any how.. i’m complete again. ^^  my heart healed when we had our heart to heart conversation. 

hahaha.. OOAAAA jud kaayo ko dah.. xa man jud oi! samok.. hehe maka OA.. hahahah Drama kaayo ko.. drama queen. hehe

i’ll just leave it like this…

hahayz.. chaonz.. well.. reality is here. i guess wala najud mi. hard to accept pero.. mao man iya gsto. dili man nako xa ma blame if dili xa ganahan nako buh? hahayz..

malas jud ko sa tanan dah.. hahayz..

love nako xa.. wala ko kamao kung unsaon nako pag move on napud. pero this time dili nako magpa dalos2. parihas sauna.. mag hinay2 najud ko… hahayz..

i love you nlng.. kung mabasa man ni nmo. au2 diha pirmi. God bless. mingawon jud ko ug ayo saimoha…

hahayz… a very sad anniversary. =[ (at least i am still believing that we are still together).

we had an argument again. this always happens. i always get mad at him during our monthsary. And now, it’s our first anniversary, i couldn’t even give myself a break getting irritated when we have some misunderstanding. hahayz.. i guess, we will never make it if i continue doing this. =[ hahayz.. i don’t even know who’s fault it is? mine or his’? i don’t know.

i feel that i have fault too, yet he does have have some fault as well.. hahayz.. guess we’re not really meant to be. i already assumed that we wouldn’t last because of my attitude.

oh well. i really love him though. but i just don’t know how he LOVES me.

If he really loves me much we will still be together when our hair turns into grey.

hahahayz.. I don’t feel like loosing him. i don’t feel like looking for somebody else. i don’t want us to fight anymore. i don’t want him to get mad at me. i don’t want to get mad at him.  but i can’t, i can’t stop myself from making him mad. =[

hala.. excited lagi ko.. haha

wala lang nalingaw ko kei wala jud ko nag expect nga mag 1year mi. hehe.. haaayyzzzz.. kalami sa feeling oi. hehe

weeee… it’s our ANNIVERSARY on MONDAY. =] LOVE it LOVe it. ^^

wEeEEEEE… ME FEELING SO chEEZY.. hehe

aw.. hahaha over.. lolz… but yah.. i’m soo happy right now. i can’t stop thanking God for giving me the best person in my life. =] don’t know how to explain it but for right now he’s my inspiration. he makes me feel complete. every time we talk on the phone, it feels so good. what more if we’re together personally, for surely it will feel so much better than talking on the phone.

he’s so understanding. he’s so thoughtful. he’s so him. that’s some reasons why i really love him. i can’t stop thinking about him. he’s simply my every thing.

haaayyzz.. love love love…. happy anniversary bHe. ^^